Friday, July 26, 2013

haunted by the mortal cold of the universe


"Many people experience the dying and rebirth-- which is our fate-- only this once during their entire life. Their childhood becomes hollow and gradually collapses, everything they love abandons them and they suddenly feel surrounded by the loneliness and the mortal cold of the universe. Very many are caught forever in this impasse, and for the rest of their lives cling painfully to an irrevocable past, the dream of the lost paradise-- which is the worst and most ruthless of dreams."

Demian, by Herman Hesse

Sunday, July 14, 2013

letting go

(i hate that) my heartstrings
are clenched in the sweaty fists 
of indifferent boys

(and they wonder) why 
i keep holding out my hand
(and i wonder too)

because
there is nothing for me to grasp

                                                                                                                     -Emilie Wetzel

Wednesday, July 3, 2013

from pain comes growth...right?



I've shedding my layers of security

and traded it for change
uncertainty


and loneliness







Tuesday, July 2, 2013

breathin' fire


what if my own skin makes my skin crawl?
what if my own flesh is suburban sprawl?
what happened between us makes sense 
if I'm nothing... you're all...
if I am nothing at all


you're always on my mind
you're always on my mind
you're always on my mind
you're always on my mind


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