queen of nothing (and it's okay)

I keep running around

trying to find the ground

but my head is in the stars

and my feet are in the sky

well I'm nobody's baby

but I'm everybody's girl

I'm the queen of nothing

I'm the king of the world

king of the world 

first aid kit

such is the way of the world

self-deception, part II

well I guess the best that I can do now is pretend that I've done nothing wrong

another travelin song

bright eyes

self-deception

i thought i had grown

become mature

now i'm sure that

i'm as dumb as i ever was

and i know this because

nothing's that great

i have bad taste

it's much too late 

to get back the time 

i wasted

nothing's that great

julia nunes

nothing else will do

gray 

tired and quiet 

and mean

picking at a worried seam

. . .

oh, such a prima donna

sorry for myself 

but green, it is also summer

and I won't be warm

until I'm lying in your arms

I've gotta have you

the weepies

summertime truths

I went to the market

though it was threatening rain

the streets filled with umbrellas

and we all look the same

but I'm the one who's waiting

'til the sun comes out again

I was made for sunny days

I make do with gray

. . .

but I was made for sunny days

and I was made for you

I was made for sunny days

the weepies

playlist for crunch time

               ...try to keep it cool

la grande--laura gibson

harold t. wilkins, or how to wait for a very long time-- fanfarlo

apple pie bed-- lawrence arabia

crosseyed--morning benders

badonkadonkey-- born ruffians

all is love- karen o and the kids

you yes you-- tuneyards

little talks-- of monsters and men

trapped in a dream

Faced with the dodos' conundrum

I felt like I could just fly

But nothing happened every time I tried

You’ll be damned to pining through the window

You’ll change your life for any ordinary Joe

Your nightmares only need a year or two to unfold

australia

the shins

close your eyes and take a plunge

You can ask about it

but nobody knows that way

no bread-crumb trail 

to follow through your days

...

you gotta be brave

all this beauty

the weepies

I'm slipping...

the sands are slipping...

One day

you'll look 

to see I've gone

for tomorrow may rain

so I'll follow the sun

some day 

you'll know

I was the one

but tomorrow may rain

so I'll follow the sun

I'll follow the sun

the beatles

the way it unfolds

I don't care just where you go

as long

as long as it's with me

I don't mind just what you do

  as long

  as long as it's with me 

   too

   little garcon

     born ruffians

just keep dancing, keep smiling

Tiger got to hunt, bird got to fly

Man got to sit and wonder why, why, why

Tiger got to sleep, bird got to land

Man got to tell himself that he understand

Cat's Cradle

Kurt Vonnegut

life ambitions

the more I learn, the more I want to run and hide

the more I learn, the more I want to scream

the more I learn, the more I want to cry

the more I learn, the more I want to shrug my shoulders and 

                                                                                        walk away

I can't shake off this feeling that I need to know what I want from life but all I know is that 

I just want to live somewhere I love 

with a goat and some chickens 

and some plants

and some people I love 

in a place where I am free 

a place where I can sing

a place where I can dance

a place where I can help

a place where I can nurture the ones I love and my surroundings

a place where I am wanted and appreciated and loved in return

buck up

so I will find my fears and face them

or I will cower like a dog

another travelin' song

bright eyes

Set forth, Voyager!

it's time to start exploring 

again

...

but

I've was really starting to feel 

comfortable with

where I was

and who I was

becoming

the minority

and I'm frustrated with myself

but I can't change

I don't want to be me anymore

and all of the 

tics

             tocs

                 clicks of clocks

that tell the time

tell me this is just a phase

Why can't you tell me what I wanna hear

to help me get some rest

Oh my darling dear?

The songs of the birds 

don't bring calmness no more

oh no, no they don't sing

barnacle goose

born ruffians

(mis)interpreting the signs

I hear the clock a'ticking

on the mantel shelf

see the hands a'moving

but I'm by myself

I wonder where you are tonight

and why I'm by myself

I don't see you

does it mean you don't love me anymore?

don't pass me by 

like you always do

don't pass me by 

the beatles

photo credit 

onto new horizons!

gonna rise up

find my direction magnetically

gonna rise up 

turn my mistakes into gold

and I'll keep 

setting forth in the universe

rise & setting forth

eddie vedder